passing away

Today marks the 13th death anniversary of a very very dear friend of mine. God has called him back when he was 16. I could still remember the months, last days, last hours of his life...

The smile on his face when his name was called to be my first dance -the 18 roses part- will never be forgotten... He has to use his crutches even if he is wearing prosthetics (right leg got amputated because of the big C )...

He taught me how to drive (ever wondered how he did it right?)...

when news that he has to undergo chemotheraphy, he told me about it, his worries regarding the procedure, that he will have to go bald, i just embraced him as his tears were falling...
many afternoons of just drving around the village and sipping on soda while watching people pass by...

then one day he was down with fever (like h-fever or something). we visited him at the hospital, we learned that the medicine he was taking for the fever has a negative effect on the medicine that he is taking for his cancer...

he went home. never got the chance to get better...

On his last hours (i didnt know that comatose na pala siya) kagagaling ko lang ng school. Maghahatid kami ng mom ko ng mga gamit ng sis ko sa school niya. We decided na dumaan sa hospital to make a visit. I was shocked to see him like that. napakaraming nakalagay sa katawan na tubes. namamaga yung arm niya. he was just staring into nothing. his breathing... hindi mo alam kung pag inhale or pag exhale niya, yun na pala yung last... We prayed for him. Then it was time for me to go home. I talked to him, sabi ko magpahinga ka na... then i cried.

At home, i went to bed. Then i thought I was dreaming. May gumising daw sa akin at sinabi na wala na siya... When i woke up the next day, i was informed na wala na talaga siya. i cried again.
Sino yung gumising sa akin that night??? was that him informing me of his passing? Who knows.

4 days later, he was laid to rest.

He will forever be remembered...

P.D.A.

Two nights ago while i was on my way home (nakasakay po ako ng jeepney) I saw a "couple" kissed each other before the girl boarded the jeepney. 2nd year high school pa lamang yung girl kasi nakita ko yung number sa patch ng uniform niya... And i wondered... at that age marunong na sila nang ganun????!!!? ok lang naman ang maging affectionate ka in public pero parang napakabata pa nila to do that. That's a no-no kasi sa para sa akin.

Naisip ko mga kids ko mga 6-8 years from now... ganun din kaya ang gagawin nila? Gosh. Parang ayaw ko na ata silang lumaki. At kung pwede lang ichaperone sila every single second, gagawin ko. Hay naku... If ever na gagawin nila yung PDA thingy huwag na huwag silang magpapakita sa akin at kakaladkarin ko sila! (hehehe).